As I was driving on my way home today, I was captured by the beauty of the sunlight hitting the rustic colored leaves just right. I almost felt as if my breath was paralyzed from the stunning colors surrounding me. It was then that I was so grateful I made it to this day to experience this masterpiece.
Today is Mental Health Awareness day. Both of us, hold this day so close to our hearts. We both live each day with our mental disease living right along side of us. Tessa was diagnosed with anxiety at only 8 years old. She struggles leaving her family, going to friend’s houses and going on long car rides. As she grew older, her anxiety became more crippling and was effecting more of her day to day life. At age 15, it was time for medication to be implemented to try and control her attacks. Today, Tessa lives each day as it comes with the people she loves by her side. She is never alone in anything she does. Tessa is going to school at UVM studying Special Education. She conquers everyday with greatness and strength.
As for myself, I was diagnosed with anxiety only a year ago when I was attending Wheaton College. This was a trying time for both myself and my family. As it is for anyone who is diagnosed with a mental illness. I went to counseling for about 6 months and was able to start medication to calm down the severity of my anxiety during March of this past year. I have had ups and downs each day. But I choose to conquer my anxiety everyday. I am currently back at school after 8 months of a little mind, body and soul rehab. I attend Southern New Hampshire University and am majoring Elementary Education and Special Education as well. I am so lucky to be surrounded by my friends and family who support me. They help me defeat my illness each and everyday.
Anxiety presents itself differently for everyone. Anxiety disorder is different from that feeling of being anxious or nervous about something. It is crippling to us most days. It has taken both of us quite a long time to love ourselves regardless of our mental illness, but we choose to stand up to our anxiety and live each and everyday with passion, purpose and love!
You are not alone. You are strong. You are beautiful. You are worthy. You are YOU. And we love you for you.